im actually doing very well with updating, even though we have no internet access at home. i think i keep up better now than i did before!

last nite i had a talk with kevin about how i feel, which was really only repeating what i said in here. it got us nowhere. i felt a bit of relief having everything out in the open and off my chest, but i still dont feel any better about the situation as a whole. kevin suggested we take this weekend as it comes, and said we were in "limbo." i dont know what will happen come monday morning.

other than that i had a good time last nite. i went to the blind lemon with kevin, mattP and kati. the club accidentally double booked shows, so there was a nice surprise for me -- the hostile omish played. im the only one i know besides beth who enjoys them. too bad she refused to go to this show. so then we watched 18 daggerz and i dont know how they spell their name so i had to guess. they are good but not as catchy as other rocknroll bands like...say...crash of 59 or anything. then finally the vacancies played and i had a most wonderful time. they are so much fun to see live!!! i can hardly wait for a third time. during the last song, the singer jumped into the crowd and apparently tried to use me as support as he did, but he must have mistook my height for something that i can only dream it is. while i think he was aiming for my shoulder, he instead grabbed my chest (just barely missing what would have made for an even worse scene) and *ouch* it hurt! he left red marks on me. but i guess thats the price you pay to have a good time rockin out. and i most certainly did.

tonite will be a crash of 59 show at the phantasy, which they insist will be total madness. supposedly they worked on their stage moves over and over again. i guess ill just have to wait and see. ill probably find my way to a computer again tomorrow, so this is enough.

until next time...

xoxo erin