i forgot what i said last.

work yesterday was funny for a change. there is a new girl who doesnt speak much english and sometimes has a hard time understanding it. this slow kid named lyle wanted to know why she wouldnt answer him when he talked to her. joyce (the annoying lady who buys me toys) explained that she cant talk much english and thats why, and lyle replied "well, i always know what YOU say because you have a big mouth!" i couldnt help myself and i burst out laughing even though joyce was so offended. HA!

beth and i went to the phantasy for the crash of 59 show. we hung out with the band and the girls and andrew. the best image i have seen in a long time was mattP with his 10-year-old boy haircut, wearing a little comic book cartoon shirt and shoving candy bars into both pockets at the same time. it was classic. i wish i would have stolen a picture. the band promised us a good time and they pretty much delivered. lots of laying on the floor, jumping in the air, standing on instruments, and even some tickling going on. it was their most fun lookin show so far.

the rest of the bands sucked so we sat outside and ate corn nuts, or talked about how much they smell (if you are steve). for a split second, when all 5 band members were sitting outside on the ground and their respective girls were cuddling to keep warm, i was very content with things. then it went away real quick, lol. i suddenly missed the old days. not that i have anything against how it is now...i just remembered how we used to hang out all the time before, the whole band (when it was minus lobster) and whoever else was around (usually me and beth and/or emily). now that hardly ever happens, except at shows like it was at that very moment.

most of us went to the doberman perch, which is a nice cozy little place. me, kevin and mattP played rummy and i won by a ton. or by a hundred. i wish i could work there instead of what i have to deal with. beths non-matt kept propositioning me for sex all nite. i finally gave in. just kidding. we went back to the club and waited for the show to be over so they could get paid. kevin and i sat down at a table and i laid my head down and fell asleep. i woke up when i felt someone rubbing my back, and i looked up expecting to see kevin. but sitting in his chair was some fat guy with glasses who i had never seen before in my life! he explained that he was just a bouncer, and he came over to "wake me gently" and make sure i was ok cause i was like that for a while. by this time everyone was gone except for the bands waiting around to get paid, and the workers were taking down all the tables and chairs. HAHA! i was completely disoriented and my face must have looked so funny to him when i saw he wasnt kevin. he even offered to make me coffee and he sat and talked with me for a few minutes more before saying "it was nice meeting you!" and going on with his job. how funny.

when we got back to my house, i was so tired and i reasoned kevin must be the same way. i didnt bother to ask, and i insisted that he stay the nite. we both knew my mom would throw a fit in the moring if he spent the nite in my bed, but i was too tired to care and he didnt protest. i left her a note saying we crashed upstairs because we were so dead, hoping she would understand. we were scared to come downstairs this morning, but when we did, all she said was how i shouldnt write notes with the words "crashed" and "dead" in them, because when she read it at 5am she was still groggy and she thought we were in an accident or something. she didnt once say anything about us sleeping up there, even adding "next time, just wake me up and tell me 'kevins sleeping upstairs!'" haaaa. so today kevin and i just laid around all day long and it was great. he didnt even go into work because he had taken off for the black halos concert (which, sadly, didnt happen). today was one of the best days ive had with kevin in a long time. too bad we had to keep getting sad when we thought about the things that have been happening with us lately. i love that kid so much. for some fucking strange reason though, im single again. god i wanna die.

until next time...

xoxo erin