if this were a movie, now is the time that he would show up at my house and announce that he made a terrible mistake and he can't live without me. since it isn't, i cried.

i cried until i made myself sick. i cried myself to sleep. i cried all morning at work. i am such a damn fool.

i realize i made him sound pretty callous by choosing to post the section of the conversation that i did last nite. in reality, it isnt like that at all. the hardest part of all of this is that he DOES like me. he DOES care about me. when i told him how happy he made my heart, he said, "you made mine happy, too." but not enough to matter. i really don't understand how you can like someone and not care if they just walk away, which was what i did. it was one of the hardest things ever and i hate it. but i know it was in the best interest of my battered heart. i just wish he cared more.

ouch. it hurts so much.

xoxo