something is going on with school this semester. i am completely apathetic and unmotivated, and i can't bring myself to do any of the readings. the papers i turn in are crap, and i have gotten two tests back so far and got big fat Fs on both of them. after the second one on friday, i was pretty upset. i always did pretty well in school. i never used to be the kind of kid who had to study to get good grades. and i actually DID study for the first F i got. beth and i were walking to the car at the end of the day and i complained, "this isn't my life! i don't get Fs!" smirking and sporting an F herself for our last art history test, she replied, "we have new lives now. we're failures." of the three classes we have, i am only passing my english class at this point. at least i have that to be thankful for, because failing a class for my major would be lame. the worst part of it is, no matter how hard i try to care about sucking at school this semester, i really don't. i am sooo burnt out.

besides that, things are really dull lately. i hung out with little matt for the first time in over a month. we ate chipotle and laughed at the idea of him being nice and saying "let's just sit on the couch and talk. i want to get to know you better." as if! haha. i saw the movie "the grudge" (twice) and it was pretty damn creepy. scary movies don't normally scare me and i grew up loving them, but this one has quite a few scenes that i just can't get out of my head. and there is this noise that happens every time the dead lady appears, and when i hear that noise i can't fucking handle it. beth snuck up behind me in the kitchen the other nite when i had my back to her and made the noise, and i burst out crying. haha no one ever scared me that bad in my life. i screamed, "BETH! NO!" because she didn't realize when i told her i hated the noise that i REALLY FUCKING HATED IT. i think my first instinct was to hit her, and i think she realized that because she hid against the side of the refridgerator. the next thing i knew i was hugging her and she was saying, "i didn't expect that to happen." she was laughing, and the more i tried to laugh with her (because it was funny, despite the fact that i almost peed my pants) the harder i cried. that noise fucks with my head the same way seeing someone stand in the corner with their back to me does after seeing "the blair witch project."

a big HELL YEAH for andrew and danielle being boyfriend/girlfriend again! it sounds like PAR-TAY time to me, but i will settle for a wendys lunch. i refuse to elaborate, but it makes my heart happy to see those kids happy again. yay!

megadeth is doing well. so well in fact that she and lemmy had a swell time running around the house this morning and fucking shit up, breaking a big mirror in the process. there's nothing i like better than getting out of bed on my only day to sleep in to vaccuum up glass off the carpet! anyhow, i would like to finally introduce you to megadeth:

as you can see, she looks almost exactly like lemmy. so far the only difference is that she is a girl and she is a whole lot less terrible. i mean that in the most loving way possible, lemmy.

this morning i was talking to my brother online when he suggested "come over and we'll drink coffee and look at art together!" it was an offer i couldn't resist. i love my family. that's all.

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