for once, i had important things to talk about. but the damn page wouldn't load so i could update. then by the time it worked, i suddenly lost any urge i had to say anything. i felt like all i wanted to do was throw up and pass out in my bed and block out everything. times like this i wish i drank. everything is going to change. i'm not ready for it, but it is not my decision to make. i can't even talk about it. sorry.

xoxo